Those of you who know me well know that I have an exceeding fondness for The Plan, both daily and long-term. I am a consummate organizer, I live and die by my Outlook Calendar. The act of formulating The Plan makes me happy; it gives me direction and focus. I take great comfort in The Plan; I am soothed by the knowledge of what’s happening next, so I can be prepared. I’ve never been good at improvising, I’m not graceful under pressure, so if there is no plan or (worse) plans go awry, I tend to stress out more than your average duck.
This characteristic surely added to my distress over suspending my training and canceling my trip to race the Flora London Marathon. My plan–not only for London but for the year–was seriously derailed; and all my running goals for 2009 would have to be reevaluated (could I even meet one of them now?). Even so, I acknowledged that setting a new plan without knowing when I’ll be able to run again was foolish.
Now that my orthopedist and physical therapist have the MRI report in hand and can proceed from a diagnosis (microtear in my adductor brevis, the highest and deepest of the three adductors), I know that I’m not allowed to run until May 26th at the earliest, which leads me to four stepping-stone dates:
May 10, 2009: I’ll walk our family tradition race, the Mother’s Day Title 9k in Boulder, CO.
June 20, 2009: My leg of the Green Mountain Relay probably needs to be one of the easiest, since I won’t have even four weeks of training under me by then.
October 10, 2009: I’ve registered for the Baltimore Half-Marathon, which will be the race I run for Dan this year (he lives in Baltimore).
April 25, 2010: Team Fox confirmed that I can defer my registration for the London Marathon to the 2010 race, so that will be my next marathon.
The plan is this: make as few plans as possible. Don’t even set goals, other than get better, get stronger, and maintain. All those goals I set back in January? I hereby declare them null, void and obsolete. I release myself from their clingy demands, effective immediately.
I have a loose framework and a general direction. For now, that’s about all I am willing to hazard. For 2009 (a.k.a. “the year which refuses to stop sucking”), the planned non-plan is going to have to be enough.
I may need your help to go with the flow here. Anyone know any deep-breathing techniques?