Dear Marathoner,
There is little that I can tell you which you haven’t already discovered for yourself during your four months of preparation for this race. But I want you to know how much I believe in you, how amazing I already think you are, and how far I can see you’ve already come, even though you have yet to toe the line and stare down 26.2 uninterrupted miles of running.
I remember when your running had been casual. I, too, have lived those days: we ran only because that’s what we had always done, and it’s all we could think to do today and tomorrow. But then, something within you rose up, and you were convicted: I can race 26.2 miles.
And so it begun: The Big Train. Through the glaring sun and oppressive humidity, through the dark and the cold. Your body ran through the seasons, and you saw trees dressed in red and orange before revealing their skeletons; you saw the land shrug off her white blanket in exchange for a green one. You were drenched, buffeted, burned, cooled, and chapped by the elements. You thought, I don’t want to. You thought, I can’t wait.
Through it all, you tended to your body the way you would care for a newborn baby. Every noise, every movement held meaning encouraging or troublesome. The stages where your heart and your legs carried you through the miles effortlessly lifted you, confirmed your theory of I can. Perhaps, though, this hasn’t been an effortless season for you. Perhaps your body has rebelled and protested, leaving you discouraged and perplexed as to why what you could once do with style and ease is now embarrassingly difficult. You learned that running does not discriminate, it points out all the evidence no matter who you are: I am faster than I thought or Something is wrong. Running is the opposite of “There is no try, only do.” In running, you now understand, there is a lot of doing before you get to the ultimate moment of attempt.
Now you are weeks, days or moments away from that moment of attempt. All that has come before is both relevant and weightless: it has gotten you here, but only you can take yourself forward from the gun. I will be there cheering you on, from the curb or my computer. I can’t run it for you, but I’ll run with you for a few miles if you let me. Triumph or failure will be yours alone, but I know the feeling of both and if you want me to, I will sit with you through either.
For good reason, we use words like strong, tough, inspiring, and dedicated to describe you. We hold you up as an example of endurance, athleticism, and force of will. When taking both the long and the short view of what you have already done and what you have yet to do for this marathon, it is difficult to near hyperbole. We are wrapped up in this world of people who run far, who push their limits and set ever-higher standards of success but never forget: it doesn’t get easier for any of us.
So Marathoner, I leave you with my love, my faith, my support. Whatever your race, be it a World Majors or a local course, its challenges are the same. Distance, time, terrain, weather: none of these are new to you. Go now, go and claim what is yours: those 26.2 miles of asphalt, and the moment when you can stop your watch and know with every cell of your body: I knew I could. I did it.
Run strong, run beautiful.
Yours,
TK
Beautiful letter.
I wish it was to me.
It will be.
Love, love, love this post! While this is the first time in 3 years I am not running a marathon in the fall I loved reading your post as it were my first marathon. I am so excited for those taking it on this year for the first time and those taking it on once again. I hope in a few years I too will be able to tackle those 26.2 miles again.
That is a gorgeous letter.
Wow, wonderfully done!
You thought, I don’t want to. You thought, I can’t wait.
That’s definitely how I felt two years ago as I was closing in on my first marathon. Oh, the excitement and anxiety!
The emotions I had as I stood shivering in the cold at the start of that, my first marathon, will never be repeated. The same can be said of how I felt when I finished the race. I have never been so suffused with a sense of my own power and determination. I truly felt as if I could do anything.
Then I went and qualified for Boston in my next marathon, an entirely different set of emotions given the path I had taken to arrive there, the circumstances of the months leading up to the race.
I miss those feelings. I’m reaching a point of “Oh great, another training cycle…sigh.” We’ve discussed. I’m trying to reset my fun button, to use a phrase I heard on a running podcast.
I’m going to push that button after I get through my marathon in December and see what happens next. All part of the journey.
I hate you a little, because I JUST SAID last night, while I was sharing that track with you, that I wouldnt ever do a marathon, even for money… yet this post makes me feel sort of inspired. really.
You are so awesome. This is absolutely perfect. Wish I had read it before my first marathon. It would have given me such a boost.
Wonderful capture of the whole experience. Thank you.
Great post. Very inspiring catching many of the feelings us runners go through in training. I loved the running through the seasons.
You need to submit this to Runner’s World or write a book or something! Wow!! great!
This letter is so awesome. I wish I was running a fall marathon this year. Next year. Thanks for posting!
@pameloth
Wow TK! Thank you for this letter, and your insight, and supporting us in our ups and downs, and sharing. I will take this with me and think of you cheering us on and I will enjoy your company during the miles you are running with me. I can do this!!
I’ve long been ambivalent about the marathon. I don’t think it something one need do to prove she’s a runner. I do think it something that requires much effort, physical and mental, to race.
As Toltstoy never said, well, I’m pretty sure he never said it, all happy marathoners are the same, and they all experience what you describe. In such a lonely endeavor, it’s good to know I’m not alone in the many months, surely more than four, dedicated to the next one I’ll do.
this is truly amazing. i will be reading this over and over again for the next 30 days.
it is something akin to experiencing something new- like a newborn. every little ache or pang, causes a panic, a stir, but generally with a stretch, a little massage, they fade away. just the body reminding you of the growing pains.
thanks TK!
This is absolutely beautiful. I am inspired, and this is a perfect read just before marathon day. Thank you. I hope you don’t mind…I am going to share through my blog (http://journeyto26point2.wordpress.com). Run on 🙂
Beautifully written! Thank you.
Wow…whether or not I make it to the starting line on 11/7, I’ll carry these words with me to my next marathon, wherever and whenever it may be.
And I’m tearing up … Outstanding.
Thank you for this! I am now 10x more excited for the marathon 🙂
TK – loved this post. I am getting ready for my last big long run this weekend and am a bit worn out. Needed this. Thanks.
Really nice, TK. You are an inspiration, as always. I’ll be thinking about the good vibes this weekend. BT
I feel a little teary, too! I am nine days away from my first marathon. There is no way I would not show up on October 17, and at the same time I am scared to death. Scared I’m going to disappoint me; scared I’m going to hurt myself. Thank you for a letter I feel is addressed to me. I. Can. Do. This.
This is beautifully articulated. Thanks!
while i’ve previously arrived at your posts on marathoning via runwestchester, i haven’t commented, mostly b/c there, i’ve posted negatively, knowing the author a little, and not here, b/c your posts are often uplifting. altho, your comments on that site, perhaps not so much. i’ll avoid it, as i don’t agree w/those ideas.
in any event, you’ve written something most marathoners can relate to, and the words of encouragement (even for someone like me, a few months out) are appreciated. it’s an undertaking, and requires prioritizing, and (quite) a little sacrifice (tho that’s a privilege for most of us, as well).
i will say thank you for the info on marathon-training…yours was a site i looked at in addition to multiple others for training ideas. i think it helped me in the ‘long run’- lol.
best on your future endeavors.
-c
I just came across this, and I THANK YOU!!! It’s good to know you are cheering for me, on my maiden voyage. I know you get it, and it means so, so much to have your absolute support. Thank you.
Hi! I came across this post through a marathoning friend this morning. I myself am a simple half-marathoner, but I’ve been out of commission since this summer b/c I am pregnant and it just got too hot to run.
I miss running terribly right now. I miss my trails. I miss my running tights. I miss the wonderful feeling of leaving everything on the road.
And I worry. I worry that once this baby comes nothing will be same. That the road won’t understand. That my body won’t cooperate. That I will never be a runner again.
So thank you for reminding me that whenever I’m ready, the road will be there waiting for me.
HI Sarah,
I know nothing of pregnancy except what I have observed: some women can run through it, some women return to running too soon. It’s all dependent upon your body.
But, I have been injured, and though it might seem fucked up, perhaps I could equate injury to pregnancy. When I was injured and couldn’t run, I felt like I was watching my boyfriend walk hand in hand with a new woman whenever I saw other runners go by me on the street, or whenever I read an excellent race report. The jealousy was overpowering; I cried.
The desire to run is all the evidence you need. the road will always be there; more importantly, you have to listen to your body. When it tells you it’s ready to commune with the road again, don’t let it tell you twice. Lace on your sneaks and flirt with the asphalt. Give it a mile of your best effort, then head back in two days for a mile and a half, et cetera, until you have the road eating out of your hand for five.
Sarah, thanks for commenting. I hope you come by again. And, congratulations on bringing another runner into the world–more are always welcome!